** My work generally involves mature themes, however this gallery may not be generally Safe For Work. **

They say it’s all in my head, but I’m in here, too. 

I have always seen myself as a ghost in a shell. I was born with a persistent melancholy that bleeds into everything I perceive and interact with. I often felt like I was observing the world around me, trapped in a fishbowl or a glass jar. The world was happening around me and I already felt half-gone. 

I learned that my brain was re-absorbing serotonin too quickly, and I likely did not have a high serotonin level to begin with. Something about my head being a black hole for joy seemed poetic. 

…and kind of funny. 

In college I began drawing and carving animal skulls. An animal never sees its own skeleton, yet its bones remain once it’s gone. This gave me a space to think about what people would find if I were gone, try to meditate on just how long forever is. I continued this work when I moved to Alaska. I made friends who made me feel like I was part of something, not just watching. 

I’m never truly free of the specter that offers an end to these worldly troubles,  but it truly helps knowing that I’m part of this wonderful community. I always have something to do, someone to talk to, somewhere to go. For now, I see things to be grateful for and happy about, things I can do to help my community thrive.

Remember through everything we are all only human. Take good care of yourself and your fellow beings. Give your loved ones some extra love. 

Thank you to my family and friends for helping me through this crazy life.

Reckoned With is a collection of work I’ve made in order to make my peace with existing in this world. This is a mix of traditional Prints and prints of Digital Paintings.